Once again I am coming to you with apologies. I am consistent in updating my blog monthly. I know you expect more from me and I too as well but honestly I don't know to write about. So if you ever have request fill free to ask me and I promise at some point I will write about that. If you have questions or just want to know stance on something let me know. Anyway I am going to give you a quick update on my job and also what the Lord is teaching me.
My job is really going well. In my last post I talked about the new program that I had been working on, well the Lord has blessed us with two successful weeks. The first week we had 22 girls show up and three parents. The second we was a small turn out with 14 girls and 1 parent. This week we are hoping high numbers. Be praying. Last week before we started our program I had the opportunity to break up my first fight among the middle school girls. The next morning I found out that many of my high school girls had a fight that same night. This really saddens me. The fighting has not stopped and there have been threads back and forth on facebook. I have gotten the opportunity to talk with the girls but honestly I don't know what I can say to make it stop. Please be in prayer that the fighting and facebook conversations will stop. Pray for reconciliation among the girls and their parents. And pray for a great turnout this week. Pray also that we will get more funding to continue on with this program. If you are interested in donating or know if people who want to donate please email me personally at firstname.lastname@example.org. our website will be up soon!!!
There are two things in the past month that the Lord has convicted me of and laid on my heart. One is that I must forgive myself and love myself, this came about through a girls Bible study I have been in this summer. This is one of the hardest things I think I am going to be walking through. There is a lot of self-contempt I am needing to deal with in my life. I need to become a peace with myself so that I then can be at peace with others and God. I am going to face myself in the mirror as Debbie (Bible study leader) said, and confess, repent, and forgive self. I don't want to do it because I know it will be hard but I know the result of doing this will be great. The second conviction came just last night when I was reading "relationships: A Mess Worth Making" by Tim Lane and Paul Tripp and they reminded me of Eph. 4:29-30 about not letting any unwholesome talk come out of my mouth, then I was also reminded of the verse on crude joking. I am a girl who gossips, can be discouraging with my words, confrontational, bold in a negative way, I can put people down with what I say and how I say it, etc. The unwholesomeness of my words can go on and on, but the Lord convicted me and I want my speech to be uplifting and encouraging, loving, gracious, and patient, kind, honest, and Christ centered. I know I will fail over and over again but I am seeking to be like Christ. Often when I think of your body is a temple, I think of being sexual pure (which I have fallen short in), or living in a manner that honors your body (which I have fallen short in), but I last night I got a feeling that that verse also means taming our speech, because our body is a temple and is owned my God we are to honor it in our speech as well. So help me out, join me, and encourage me as I try to tame this wicked tongue.
I will leave you with this verse which has been an encouragement to me:
"Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord!" Romans 7:24-25a