Sunday, May 23, 2010


I am really annoyed with right now.  I tried to log on to facebook and long behold I couldn't.  My account apparently does not exist.  What happened?  Can anyone tell me?  All my contacts and all my pictures.  How does your facebook just disappear?  What the heck.  For all my followers I know I need to write something for you all.  I want to give you all something good, something original, something real.  I have no idea what that is but wait to see.

Friday, May 14, 2010


I am looking for some work this summer.  If anyone is interested in hiring me, or know a job that you think would interest me please comment.  I am a social work major so ideally something that would help me become a better social worker would be great.  I love teens, the elderly, families.  I love people from all different walks of life.  People from other countries make me really happy.  Anyone who finds me a job I will take them out to a really nice dinner my first pay check.  I am looking for work in St. Louis!!!

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Jesus is the True and Better:

My pastor Darrin Patrick at The Journey St. Louis shared this with us this Sunday and I found it very encouraging. I often find it hard to find Jesus throughout the Bible and we are often taught that He is talked about in both the Old and New Testaments. Here is what my pastor shared:

Jesus is the true and better:
Jesus is the true and better Adam who passed the test in the garden and whose obedience is imputed to us.
Jesus is the true and better Abel who, though innocently slain, has blood now that cries out, not for our condemnation, but for acquittal.

Jesus is the true and better Abraham who answered the call of God to leave all the comfortable and familiar and go out into the void not knowing wither he went to create a new people of God.

Jesus is the true and better Isaac who was not just offered up by his father on the mount but was truly sacrificed for us. And when God said to Abraham, “Now I know you love me because you did not withhold your son, your only son whom you love from me,” now we can look at God taking his son up the mountain and sacrificing him and say, “Now we know that you love us because you did not withhold your son, your only son, whom you love from us.”

Jesus is the true and better Jacob who wrestled and took the blow of justice we deserved, so we, like Jacob, only receive the wounds of grace to wake us up and discipline us.

Jesus is the true and better Joseph who, at the right hand of the king, forgives those who betrayed and sold him and uses his new power to save them.

Jesus is the true and better Moses who stands in the gap between the people and the Lord and who mediates a new covenant.

Jesus is the true and better Rock of Moses who, struck with the rod of God’s justice, now gives us water in the desert.

Jesus is the true and better Job, the truly innocent sufferer, who then intercedes for and saves his stupid friends.

Jesus is the true and better David whose victory becomes his people’s victory, though they never lifted a stone to accomplish it themselves.

Jesus is the true and better Esther who didn’t just risk leaving an earthly palace but lost the ultimate and heavenly one, who didn’t just risk his life, but gave his life to save his people.

Jesus is the true and better Jonah who was cast out into the storm so that we could be brought in.

Jesus is the real Rock of Moses, the real Passover Lamb, innocent, perfect, helpless, slain so the angel of death will pass over us.
He’s the true temple, the true prophet, the true priest, the true king, the true sacrifice, the true lamb, the true light, the true bread.
The whole Bible is about Him. 

Monday, May 10, 2010

Are there any eligible black men?

Many people may read this title and wonder what the heck I am getting into today. I have a desire to write a book and today I am going to take you into a topic that I want to address in my book. I was hanging out with a White friend the other day and she asked if I thought there was a shortage of African American Christian men, and if so if it was discouraging. My response was yes to the first part and no to the second part. But I wish I would have answered differently. I took the second part as if I was discouraged because there were a short of Black Christian men for me to date. And to that question I say not really because I wouldn't mind dating outside my race. I don't have a preference when it comes to dating. But overall when I look beyond my preference to date, I am discouraged at the fact that there are not many solid (Christian) black men out there.  According to 2005 Census Bureau statistics, the male African-American population of the United States aged between 18 and 24 numbered 1,896,000. According to the Bureau of Justice Statistics, 106,000 African-Americans in this age group were in federal or state prisons at the end of 2005 ( That same article states that over 35% of AA males will be arrested in their lifetime. There may be a million more who don't gain a college degree. And statistically AA women who gain college degrees are less likely to marry within her race because AA men are not as educationally compatible. I would say there is a great chance a AA  her docterate to find a AA man then a christian AA woman to find a solid Christan man. This is one reason the Lord gave me a desire to write a book. I don't see many African American Christian leaders out there, men or women. I am not going to go as far as to say there are not any, I am aware of some of them. Tony Carter is one, who is a pastor in Atlanta. But I do believe there is a great need for the gospel in urban communities and a great need for black male leaders to lead in churches and communities. I am not going to exclude women like myself, because there is a shortage of black Christian women. Out of all the godly women I look up to, there are only a hand full who is black women, Lorato, Mrs. Williams, Trill, Mrs. Baker and some family members. Thank you all for being great examples. I work in a community with young Black girls and I asked them what they expected from me, and to my surprise one of them said a mother figure. I was like wow I can't live up to that, why would she even say that. I was shocked and just nodded, and was hoping she really didn't mean it. When I was her age I wanted the exact same thing, and at that age the Lord blessed with many mother figures. I got the opportunity to see one tonight conduct her last high school orchestra. I was the age of this girl who asked me to be her mother figure, and my teacher was the age that I am now. She was a great influence in my life then and she still is now. At 22 or 23 she was a mother figure to me. I sent her to Mars and back, Kelly thank you for making a difference in my life. I just kind of went off the topic but my point is that we need people like my teacher who though was not Black stepped into my life and cared for me and who still is present in my life. I want this to be me; I want to encourage black men and women to be this in our communities, I want Blacks to boldly profess the gospel in their schools and communities. I want Black men to lead in churches and marriages. I want to have many examples of godly black couples like my friend Lorato and her husband. I want to see an abundance of Black Christian men and women. I don't want to be discouraged when I am asked if there are any eligible black men. I want to say proudly, yes there are eligible black men, and I am encouraged. Now some whites and other races may not know this but most black people grew up in the church. But the sad thing, like many people in all races who grew up in the church, there are many who have false assurance. I want my fellow Blacks to get into church, and churches that preach the gospel.